After such a moving gratitude list how can I write this on the same day?
This is just not going well. I saw my therapist today and once again he reminded me about my going from zero to sixty in such a short time. I didn't go to the gym on Wednesday, I slept. I'm not going today, I just got up from a 2.5 hour nap. I wish I'd never joined. This isn't about the crying jag. This is about biting off more than I can chew. I know, I know. The whole time I wasn't working all I wanted to do was work. And the whole time I wasn't working out all I wanted to do was work out. So what's the problem? I still feel tired all the time. I still feel depressed. I keep wondering if my meds are working properly. I still like the job. I just don't want to do so much after I get off work. At least not yet. I've changed my mind. Is that alright? I need to be able to savor my down time. God I sound selfish. I don't like this new me. This is not going well, at all.